My [Working] Motherhood Journey.
I took the baby classes. I washed the new baby clothes. I double-confirmed my mat leave. And I scrambled to get the nursery done and the car seat in the car, hoping that some of these things might help me to “get ready” for my new mama life.
While it did help me to mentally feel like I had the tools in place to help me keep a small human alive, I had very little idea what I was truly in for!
Nothing went according to my plan – my daughter came three weeks early, I delivered via emergency surgery, and I had a tough time settling into my “new normal.”
I knew it would be hard but couldn’t imagine the reality of what my life would look like – which is difficult for someone who loves to be in control of a good plan!
Thankfully, my village showed up for me, big time.
I have so much love and appreciation for all who came to rally around me, keep my spirits up, help keep food on our table, and allow me a few moments to breathe and settle into my new life.
I cannot thank my tribe enough. Their support also allowed me the space to think through my return to work – what it would look like and how I could show up as a new mom – which seemed like an extremely daunting task.
However, after much deliberation, I ultimately made the difficult decision (when my daughter was 4 months) to take a break from work and become a full-time stay-at-home mom.
Although full-time “moming” can really take it out of you, I’m finding motherhood allows me space to see the world through a new lens and look for opportunities and inspiration I’d never noticed before.
Some days are pure survival mode. But on others, I find energy and inspiration from unexpected places like mid-day walks and run-ins with other new moms and dads. And, I am loving how I’m constantly learning about myself through the eyes of a smiley, curious six-month-old!
Looking back now, I feel so grateful for my new beginning. As I navigate my professional journey and how to return to paid work, I feel confident that I will bring a new level of creativity, insight, and inspiration.
So here is to new adventures, new challenges, taking on new roles we didn’t know how to do or didn’t think we could manage. Here is to allowing yourself space, grace, and the ability to ask for help, to say I don’t know, and trust in your gut that you are most likely doing way better than you think.
And, here is to being tired, but also being inspired, by new opportunities, challenges, and perspectives!